Is this piecing?

[flowmom]

Of course you ache with the loss H4L! He is so near yet so far. You've seen progress and dealt with some major bombs...both in the last week. Whether calculated or not, this is screwing with your head...and your heart! Be super gentle with yourself and I agree with LauraOh's advice to leave situations where there is any verbal abuse...though I know that's complicated by not necessarily wanting to leave your S behind with your H.