Well just got back from bike riding. Had good time with DSD - we walked. We got all the way there and DH had noticed a slow leak in my tire but it turned out to be a fast leak. H and DSS rode. I noticed when he was talking to me several times he looked in my eyes and seemed content, if not happy, but then he'd realize it and almost you could see the will he used to look away, not look at me, keep his body language turned away from me.
It was funny but on the way home, he kept looking out the window (I drove) and every time he did, I'd swerve, and he'd look back ahead. I think he caught on, but it was fun anyway. I was getting angry at his insistence at trying not to connect with me so I just wanted to have some fun with him.
What do you guys think about this behavior? IMHO I believe that if he wasn't afraid that he still has feelings for me, he wouldn't do those things. He doesn't want to touch me, look in my eyes, etc. He's afraid to. I mean, if you hate someone, it's a strong emotion and it means you care on some level. I am thinking the same of this behavior, because when he's subconscious (asleep) he'll get close to me, even purposefully move to touch me with his body, but when awake he looks like he's trying to remember to be distant.
