feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

Juno...I do feel sucker punched and am experiencing some serious sadness but im trying like hell here. I appreciate your post very much.

CG - I know...I have no intention of even looking at the pics. I had the investigator send the pics to a friend's email so I didn't see them. I won't do that to myself. I will read the report once and put it away..eventually in my fireplace. I already knew what was going on I didn't need proof...only to stop his lies.

Thank you guys.

[givingitmyall]

Luvless,

I'm really sorry. As bad as it hurts, it does get better. It DOES.

When I was served with the D petition, I flipped out. And someone very wise told me, that while it is a 2nd bomb, "nothing's changed." And, nothing has changed.

Focus on yourself while grieving. It's ok, no, it's necessary, to grieve the loss. But, keep reminding yourself you ARE stronger than this and you WILL get through this a MUCH better and wiser person.

Then, take the steps you need to protect yourself financially.

Hang in there - ONE DAY AT A TIME for a little while.

[alice444]

I bet you're sad- anyone would be . I'm not in exactly the same boat, but I know that feeling like your stomach has dropped out and you can't quite breathe. Definitely put the thing away like you're planning- good on sending pics elsewhere- as much as we think we want to see them (I'd think I wanted to, too), it's going to make it worse right now.

I'm thinking of you--

(((Luv)))

[flowmom]

Hang in there Luv. I don't know how one prepares oneself for that kind of information .

[avermont]

Hang in there. Breathe, breathe.

Today I got thru "one minute at a time." today I got thru by pulling myself into mindfullness of present moment only: walking down hallway. Sweeping floor. Tying shoes.

Yes, it sounds like a slow 2 year old. But every time I reminded myself that all that was happening was: tying shoes, was at least 30 seconds not wallowing in misery and pain.

Hugs to you.

[kara]

(((Luv))))

No words, just hugs.

[luvless]

I appreciate your support avermont and kara - thanks.

I had a bad day guys. I am tired and need to relax. I feel more calm right now even though as we speak H is still not home (it's 8:15) and he got out at 12:00.

I think he may be out looking for apartments which will be good bcuz he needs to get out of my house. He is upsetting my kids too and doesn't realize how much.

Sleep well everyone.

Luv

[Gnosis]

Hey Luv... just plenty of virtual (((( hugs ))))

Keep yourself busy. I'll try catch up with you later.

[luvless]

Thanks G - I'll be sending you a note.

H came home last night without his wedding ring on. I don't know why but that just really hurts more than anything.

It's a day of doing stuff around the house but we'll see what happens later on. I'm curious to see how today will go. I am going to keep busy and stay clear.

Luv

[CityGirl]

Just wishing you a good morning and good day!

((((strength hug)))