So now he tells me that he is completely done, he sent me a text message on Thursday with a number for mediation asking me to call it. He says he doesn’t want to hurt me anymore as far as us fighting, being non affectionate. We have been married for almost 9 years and together for 14, we have 2 boys ages 8 and 4 and I am not ready to throw our marriage down the tubes yet. I know he is serious this time I can tell by his actions and eyes when he told me. The last couple of days I have been an emotional wreck, crying constantly and flipping out around him. I don’t understand myself to be honest because about a week ago I was doing the whole lights out technique for about 2 weeks and it was then he sends me an email stating how he can’t stand it that I am so happy all the time with all this stuff going on, so it was obviously working in someway or another. He would also come lay down in bed by me when I was watching a show on tv, nothing would happen but he would at least come sit by me. He would go get me medicine if I needed it too. I just don’t know how to be happy and cheerful around him if I know now that he is serious about getting a divorce. We are still living together because neither one of us has money to file right now, and our house cannot be put on the market until we get our roof fixed which isn’t going to happen anytime soon, so how to I remain calm, cheerful and act as if I don’t care this is all going on when I know he is dead serious this time, and I have to live in the same house with him for months?
