She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

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steady in my mind i feel that i don't need my W, but my heart will tell me differently at times. I wen't back to the post and deleted the response I put, so she doesn't even know that i know.

In regards to you're question. I've given thought to that exact question allot lately. I would be happy with either outcome. however, it would naturally take me some time to fathom the possibility of someone else for me.

I know that I was a good person before this, and I know that I'm an even better person now. If my W decides to skip this train, I have absolutely no doubt in my mind or heart that someone else will benefit.

I'm not lost right now, confused yes, but not lost. My W on the other hand is lost. Obviously not in her mind, but she really is. I know who am, and I have benefited greatly from this.

had i not come here and had to deal with this, it may have not gone down like this.

We could have gone on the way we were, or we could have still ended up down the D road, but I had i been there i may have handled it differently.

I truly believe I would have done more of the wrong things and may have possibly never found this web site.

I honestly believe there's a reason it happened when it did and how it did. Someone upstairs has always looked out for me, and I know that will continue.

I've held it together pretty well for being where I'm at, going through what I have. I really have improved my outlook on things and the way I handle them.

My best friend told me tonight that the difference in me is night and day from how I was 1 year ago today. He said he really looks up to me and respects me.

He went through a D and made all the wrong moves. He has commended me for my attitude and my composure, and said he's learning allot from me. I haven't said one bad thing about my W to him or anyone else, but she has about me. I can hold my head up high, because i know I'm handling myself correctly.

My sitch may really suck, but I have made a positive impact on so many people through this. I've had to talk to all my friends over here about this, and I've touched allot of people with what I'm going through and how I'm handling it.

Being in Afghanistan isn't easy, and it's no easier having to deal with M problems. i never really knew just how strong I could be until all of this. The fact that I've remained strong for my kids speaks volumes as well.

I hope the rest of my journey goes well. I know there will be rocky roads ahead, but i know I'll make through to the other side.

Sorry, i didn't mean to make it all sound corny, but i trully believe these things.