Last weekend, I finally got to see where my H is living for the past couple of years. It is your average apartment with a couch, a table and a bed. To me it reeked of depression...kind of cluttered, dark and dingy. It kind of made me feel angry to see it, not really understanding why he would choose to live there over being in a nice house with me. All I can figure out is the apartment was his way to escape and not deal with anything.
I went to part of my H's C session the other night. The C told me he was extremely pleased with my H's progress. The C confirmed again that my H loves me and wants our M. He even asked why we aren't wearing our wedding rings. I kind of figured if my H ever moves home, we might start wearing our rings then. I did try on my rings after the C's suggestion but it just didn't feel right yet especially since my H isn't even back home. I think I need to know for sure he isn't going to run away again before I put them back on.
Next week, I am taking my kids on vacation. I have wanted to take this trip for years and was waiting to go with my H. I decided that I don't want to live my life waiting around anymore so my kids and I are going. I haven't looked forward to anything like this in such a long time, I have almost forgotten what it feels like to be excited about something. I have to say I am proud of myself for no longer putting my life on hold.
peace-I hope all is well with you and your kids. Thanks for checking in on me. I'm not so good at updating these days since I am working more.
HB-Glad to hear your H is getting a little better. Hopefully things are improving between the two of you as well. Thanks as always for your support...I know I will be fine. You will too.
