"All rise"

[faithisbelieving]

Thank you for your kindness Bill. There is a wonderful new beginning ahead of me. I just need to mourn the loss of time with my children and learn to adapt to a new style of living. I have a lot of financial rebuilding to do, but, I will get there.

I apologize to all here for saying the following. I will not mourn the loss of my wife. I repeat the line from the movie Gladiator, "she's done her work well." Unlike many here, I will not walk around missing her

I will miss my kids.

I will not miss us as a group.

I will miss the institution of being a family.

I will not miss our marriage.

I will miss the structure of being married.

This morning, before going to work, I went through some old photos. The woman in the pictures looks, well, younger (I don't say that from that 'male' point of view, but, meaning from the Abraham Lincoln point of view: wasted from a four year Civil War of carnage, anger and destruction.)

There were photos of STBXW holding our son over pumpkins as a toddler, a photo of she and I dressed in Halloween masks before taking the kids Trick or Treating, pix of the kids naked and holding each other.

It's OK. It's history. Disposable for one person. It's the bane of the LBS'er here, the complete inability to understand how someone can change so much, develop disdain enough: to throw everything away.

Sometimes, I believe and have told others here, that, like the end of a book, it is better to just close it and move on to the next story without trying to overanalyze and appreciate the story it told.

FIB