Glad you are ok and things have calmed down. Thinking of you, have a good long weekend! xxx (and I still cant find a damn dress!!!!! Going back home to search for Easter)
Me29 S3 H left 4/1/09 I file 8/2/10 Divorce final 5/17/11 1st http://www.tinyurl.com/25lhu52 2nd http://www.tinyurl.com/2c35ueg 3rd http://www.tinyurl.com/322yk89
Big Friday today here. As ALWAYS, this day, the weather is warm but cloudy and later today when we go to church a little rain will visit us... I took my dad at the hospital this morning to have some tests ordered by the doc because chemo hit him hard and his blood cells dropped too much. They may keep him there, maybe not. We'll see.
H got a ticket for speeding last night, a 600 euros fine and they took his licence for 2 months. He came home really upset and that was what we talked about.
Later in the night, he woke me up and he initiated sex. I was shocked and didnt have time to think about it which was I think positive. It was weird. It was more a statement of "I find you attractive, dont want to hold back anymore and you are mine" all together while worrying about my reaction. He was very intense and to be honest, I was just going along if you get what I mean, I was very shocked it happened.
No tears, no disappointement, no resentment. I guess, being almost asleep helped. He didnt say ONE word and I only said "if that's what a speed ticket does to you, I will make sure you get fined daily" in a bad effort to lighten the moments after the actual act. Another big brick was taken off the wall last night. I felt something had shifted, didnt expect it and thank God it wasnt a painful experience. K
I would think the first time would always be a bit different. (I know it was for me anyhow). It is a break in the ice for sure. I really don't know that it would be the most passionate just because there is tentativeness on both sides. So glad he made the first move.
Does your H always speed? If not maybe he was racing home to you.
hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
OK, so maybe my opinions change about him daily... but this is really a great, positive step!
Really happy for you.
M38, H37 S3, S7 Together 15 yrs Married 8 yrs Bomb July 2008 Inhouse separation "I hate you" "We are over" (too many times to count) Reconciled Sept 2009 (still worth it)
It's Kara. I can't remeber if I have ever posted to you but I always read along. Just wanted to say that I think that this is a really big wall coming down.
Put me in the jealous column too. THAT..is a start....I pray. FIB
Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11) Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10 Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;
