he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

ok guys, puppy are u still here? lol

would u believe i am here posting not about h, but about my boyfriend? i guess that in itself is amazing progress from a year ago huh???? lol

update first on the divorce - still going through it, not much action, he was ordered to pay me, still really hasnt but it is set up through the state to come out of his checks...we are friendly, he likes to start little fights with me and i laugh at him...

enough about h though...my boyfriend is the issue right now, and u would think i would know how to handle it!

things were hot and heavy, amazing. just amazing...and then he started going through alot of stressful things in his life(more things than i can even relate to, rather serious business, divorce and financial issues)....we talked a month ago and he told me he had so much on his plate and cant deal with it all but we were fine he just wanted to tell me so i understood. and i did, so i kinda laid low and things were ok for the most part. but he was clearly distracted and stressed.


so u know i started to flip, take it personally and shouldnt have. but really, i needed attention to! i was open and honest about my feelings, told him i would support him through this but still needed to see him and talk to him.

anyway, he kept telling me to relax, he just needs time to sort his stuff out. but i wasnt seeing him so i just told him that i cant be on hold like this and im sorry but its too hard and that when things clear up for him to call me.

so he said he understands and that he cant give me what i need until his stuff is cleared up and the more i push the more he goes.....push??? me?? lol u would think from db i would have learned not to do that!

so now what? the no contact thing? will that make it all better?