We all understand how you're hurting. WE ALL HAVE GONE THROUGH IT.
We've all hurt so much that we can't breathe, our chest gets sore, the sky is gray. Been there done that. Make it a point to get over it and LIVE.
You want to feel like you have nothing going for you? Tell that to the child with inoperable cancer who refuses to give up. Tell that to the mother living homeless on the street wondering where her kids are going to get a meal. The point is that you have YOU.
You feel like your life has turned upside down? There are people on these boards whose spouses have left them when they have incurable diseases. But they all chose to thrive.
You will do the same. You take things one day at a time. As hard as it seems to be right now, the days will get brighter, your life will get better. Your WAS is a man. Just a man. Not God. Not even a friend. After all, a friend wouldn't treat you like that would he? Remember what it was like when you didn't have him. Remember your dreams your aspirations.
Go out and do something physical, like run. Yell, scream, get it all out. Stop pondering and start doing. If you feel like the waves of despair are going to drown you, choose to fight your way to the surface. Call a hotline, get some meds, in time you will no longer need them.
First thing you do is stop typing. Stand up. Square your shoulders. Take a deep breath. And breathe. One second at a time, one minute at a time. You can do it.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.