tbart01 - I am by no means a better man than you. I want to do exactly what you did. But I was a police officer for 15 years and I saw first hand what happens when you do something like that. If I did what I wanted I would lose my job and I can't do that with everything else going on.
As for what I want for my marriage I am not sure anymore. Ask me that a month ago and I would have said I would do anything to save it. But now I don't know. This isn't the first time she has done this. I have proof of one other time 6 years ago for sure and suspect a couple of others in between the first one and this latest one.
Call me crazy or stupid but deep down I think I want thigs to work out so we can salvage what was once a great marriage.
