Big Friday today here. As ALWAYS, this day, the weather is warm but cloudy and later today when we go to church a little rain will visit us... I took my dad at the hospital this morning to have some tests ordered by the doc because chemo hit him hard and his blood cells dropped too much. They may keep him there, maybe not. We'll see.
H got a ticket for speeding last night, a 600 euros fine and they took his licence for 2 months. He came home really upset and that was what we talked about.
Later in the night, he woke me up and he initiated sex. I was shocked and didnt have time to think about it which was I think positive. It was weird. It was more a statement of "I find you attractive, dont want to hold back anymore and you are mine" all together while worrying about my reaction. He was very intense and to be honest, I was just going along if you get what I mean, I was very shocked it happened.
No tears, no disappointement, no resentment. I guess, being almost asleep helped. He didnt say ONE word and I only said "if that's what a speed ticket does to you, I will make sure you get fined daily" in a bad effort to lighten the moments after the actual act. Another big brick was taken off the wall last night. I felt something had shifted, didnt expect it and thank God it wasnt a painful experience. K
