New here and need some help!

[kjensen]

Hi CK,
The thing that will help you the most is to do what you probably haven't done in awhile...focus on YOU and not HIM. In a way, its the hardest thing to do, but it is your salvation.

You cannot help your husband-he has demons to deal with on his own. Only once he has one through this journey, on his own, will there be the possibility of him returning. Possibility.

You have a journey to go on, as well....taking care of yourself, as you have shown time and again that you are very capable of doing. Becoming the person you want to be. If you are a "fixer", its time to "fix" yourself, strengthen your weaknesses, discover what pleases YOU!

The bomb throws us all. It blindsides us all. But to thrive, you must get past the 'wrongness' of it all, pick yourself up and look forward and ultimately, move forward. The past is the past.
All we have is now. Make it the best "NOW" that you can!