I began to again to question and believe that God does not hear my prayer, because he is driving the actions that allowed my H to walk away, that allowed the issues of my past to persist. How can he allow this to happen? I am so concerned that God is disappointed in me and my decisions (even recent actions/decisions) and that his WILL does not include reconciliation with my H. How can I have any hope that my M could be saved from D if God is driving and caused the events to take place?
I know some have already replied to this...
God does not drive our will. He does allow things to happen IMHO, but he does not always make them happen. Sin is the reason for our hurt, and we will always have hurt in our lives because of it. Christ is the only answer to sin, and to healing. God sees the full picture, he sees what these experiences can do for us, help us grow, and help us gain understanding and wisdom.
God does not have plans to hurt you but to prosper you. Give him your hurt and believe in his plan. your road may be dark, but if you keep on the path, you will enter into light, and a beautiful pasture.
(((DU)))
I also had to eliminate all contact with my family. sometimes you must do this. just let them know you need time to focus on you, and that you love them, but are distancing yourself away from everyone for this time. It's okay. I'm sorry your dad shared info...I'm sure he is just worried and didn't mean to put more burdens on you.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
