I know what you're saying- the alcohol though would have taken some of the edge off...I know we both had resentments etc...anyway. NC still in effect...trying to GAL, not fully enjoying it.
Dad contacted me today, W has not paid her car bill or loan payment, he's livid...W is so irresponsible right now financially.
How can you keep this shirt up? I know in my addiction, when things got this bad, I never wanted to face them...I did though when I had no choice...
Difference is I HAD to respect my family at some point, W doesn't have that requirement...I guess I didn't either until I knew I had to.
Making dinner plans w/ a friend from work for Sat...not sure about tomorrow night yet.
Still praying...still not fully forgiving myself yet...always thinking of yet another failure...opportunity lost. Very frustrating.
It broke my heart to hear my dad so upset...I immediately thought of how responsible W and I used to be about bills, doctors, work etc...I hate watching her struggle.
Also my birth sister is in town this weekend, I have only met her once ten years ago...I'm gonna visit her on Sat. I am really upset b/c I would love for W to be there as well. I thought about breaking NC to inform W...but couldn't stand the expected reply : "have fun." or "good for you."
UGH- you know it's bad (or good) when you know what the WAS is going to say...lol
