((((Aver)))), I was pretty cranky when I wrote that post! Sleep deprivation, it's not pretty! I understand now, apologies to MIL, please disregard my rantings.
Well, OK maybe now you got some of that out of your system now? Please listen to the wise souls on here telling you to never compare yourself to OW. It's hard for me too to keep focus on myself (as you know after reading my thread :))
You sound a little better, and I like Talia's idea too about listing 3 (at least!) good things a day.
Kudos and congrats for sending that email to X, not easy I know. I don't know how to advise on the heartfelt email, as you know I need a lot of guidance on my correspondence but I might just take the 3rd sentence out.
I understand wanting to end on a good note. I have wrestled with this too. And I know you're don't have any expectations from it.
But I don't see him as having the power to give you peace. I understand where it's coming from but I believe someday you will have that peace no matter what happens w X.
Thanks for stopping by my thread & all your support. I can't tell you how much it helps! ((((hugs)))))
but I might just take the 3rd sentence out. 
