Do you think WAS ever...

[Swiss Miss]

My H has told me that he was disgusted with and hated himself while he was lying to me when we were still living together. He couldn't see or admit this when he was still angry and felt everything about our marriage and his life was my fault, however. So it does take time, and of course some people just act like they are justified in whatever they do. It is frustrating to be the one to see things more clearly and have to hear the endless rationalizing and blaming, however.