No longer sitting on the fence

[motherof3]

I just got back from meeting H at the accoutants. You can check filing the 2009 taxes off my list. It is depressing how much of my money the government gets. Such is life, I guess.

Anyways, there were a few momments that were hard to get through such has still being referred to as married. Which I guess we are technically but...

Next year the taxes will be so much more complicated. Who gets to clain what kid? Who gets to deduct which childcare expenses? Taxes on alimony, if I get any. Etc.

Then I come back to the boards and read on someone's thread that all of this work to save the marriage is a lost cause because in all likelihood, when a WAS says they are done, they mean it.

Someone please remind me why I even bother. Why do I still care? It would be so much easier to just walk away if H were being a deadbeat dad, tramping around (or maybe he is, IDK). Add to the mystery, why he mentioned D as late as December 2009 and still hasn't filed. Sh$t or get off the pot already. You wanted this so bad, just do it already.

Sorry about the ranting. Bad day.