Are there signs?

[dday101798]

Brace for impact.

[How when she is, was everything to me.

So you were absolutely NOTHING before her? Attractive, how did you manage to get the woman's attention then? Let alone want to marry a Mr. Nothing?

How do you let go of something that you promised your life to?

I think I finally attained this when I decided my wife was dead. Essentially, she was, emotionally dead. If someone is on the verge of death are you one of those types who makes them suffer on life support for your own greed of keeping them around?

I picture myself as a raccoon that found a piece of metal stuck in a tree. Its so shiny and dammit I want it so I wont let it go and I end up getting trapped. Help me out of this trap.

Bad analogy, a racoon is a crafty and determined little critter and will back off when approached, yet return when the situation is more promissing.