See the problem is you want HER to forgive you and love you and accept you and your problems but you are unable to do the same for her.
You have painted your wife out to be some sort of hideous troll unfit to be seen in society and too stupid to function. You of course are not under any obligation to disclose anything on a public forum but for months and months you FAILED to mention a MAJOR part of your attraction/sexual issues with your wife is due to YOUR porn addiction.
Did you ever stop to think your W makes NO effort with you and visually pleasing you because she has just had enough of you? You continue to harp on how unattractive she is and you gawk at other women and make nasty comments to her. Maybe she is just done trying in the looks/sex department because really, it doesn't like anything will meet your standards. And your standards are nothing more than a full fledged fantasy.
In my opinion it sounds like you think you are smarter and better than your W in every way. Rethink that because it just oozes from your posts and it is a major, major turnoff.
