I should add, I don't use it daily. Weekly at most. Now that I've told her, I figure within a month or two I'll be down to much less. I hope in 6 months it will be a rare event and within a couple years, I pray for never again.

Our divorce mediator said she felt W would need to accept that it is like an alcoholic...the addiction once set in for those starting young will never fully go away. I hope she's wrong.

When we were fighting, time spent away wasn't so bad. Now, I can feel the selfishness of it much more.