MF: How are you doing today? Let's see. I wasn't actually golfing yesterday. I was picking up my irons and dropped by the golf shop to buy a bag. Me swinging clubs right now would be a recipe for disaster. I start lessons in a week. My buddy at work put the clubs together for me and he is just fanatical about golf and the equipment. He's someone I need because he will push me and give me that nudge to get me going.
I didn't see any post about your business visits. I looked through my thread and your thread and couldn't find it. Send it to me in a message.
Love the golf frustration story. I think that will be me. I remember that from when I golfed eons ago. My buddy was telling me he went once with his dad and dad's friends. He got so frustrated he quit on the course and just sat in the cart. LOL.
Stoic? Maybe that is the wrong descriptive. More like very even tempered and mild.
Serenity: In your sitch was the H still living with you for that year or was he out of the house?
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Lastly, I'm proud of you for not drunk dialing! What's your poison?
I was drinking vodka and ginger beer. It's not really my drink of choice. I would have preferred a gin and tonic, but I didn't have any tonic.
I know I shouldn't wallow in this and Rob will have to cut me some slack on analyzing it, but here's how it went down yesterday.
Me: Asked how she was doing. Asked about her day. W: Fine. (Made small talk) Me: Listen, I need to talk to you about something... (Then I followed the script.) W, you are totally right. Impossible to work out. Want you to be happy in her new life. I need to be happy. Did you a favor and packed up your stuff. Feel free to use the truck or maybe rent one. No rush on moving it, but I'd like the garage back. W: I agree. Glad you see things my way. Sorry I wasn't the best W. I want you to be happy. Me: Yep. I'm going to be cleaning the house painting/redecorating, if I find anything else of yours I'll email you a list before throwing it away. W: When do you want to get together to discuss "arrangements". Me: You know. I'm not ready for that right now. I have some things I need to work on first. W: Okay. Me: Have a great day.
W did not appear surprised. Did not ask why, did not get upset, but I could tell she was on the verge of tears and held her composure. But then lately she is always crying when we get together and apologizes for it. She says she doesn't know why she is crying.
My gut tells me there are only two options of what is going on. Option 1: She is still seeing OM and is deep in a fog for nobody knows how long. Probably permanently. Option 2: OM didn't work out and she won't allow herself to come back. She will just continue to punish herself for it.
Neither option has her coming back. I could improve myself to be the coolest guy in town, I don't think she will fight for the M. She would rather just burn it to the ground. I would love to know what she is thinking, but I think to her, the marriage is now tainted. If it is not all puppies and rainbows, then better to just end it.
