It is not unreasonable to ask WHY you married her if you did not love her or find her attractive. That makes no sense.
This is not about attacking you. You seem to be just fine attacking your W but when somebody on the forum points out your part in it you say you are being attacked.
When you don't love somebody and you are not attracted to them what do you expect to happen. Perhaps her flaws are magnified to YOU since you feel this way. Maybe she doesn't treat you well, I don't know since I am not there. Based on what you say it doesn't seem you treat her well either.
Basically your W was in a strange country, did not know the language, was married to a man she didn't know and that didn't love her or find her attractive and found herself pregnant and you wonder why she was "grumpy"?
