And I don't know how anything would change on my end... if I did reconcile, well, I'd have my "partner" back (at least for a while).
But I wouldn't be able to move on with my life, I'd still be mostly raising the kids on my own.
He'd still be living and working in another city.
I never wanted to be in this position, I wanted to be happily married for life. But since I am, I kind of feel like this might be my last chance to move on if I have to and find someone who really likes ME. If I ride this rollercoaster for another 2-3-5 years, I will be an emotional mess, older, financially insecure, and then what? But I so don't want to live on my own and date either. I want my old life back, or what I thought it was!
