But you are, TTA, YOU are all there. With or without him, it is you that you live with each and every day.
How much of your feelings are failure, and how much are your desire for him? While hope really must always be remembered - if he is depressed or on med side effects, or just finds his love stronger than his fears, he may one day come running back to see your work in action.
Is it possible to be mixing up those feelings and thinking your sadness is only missing him?
