Thanks CB. I thought I was trying to romance her, but that problem happened withing 5 minutes of our arrival. Considering that she has always refused babysitting and we never dated before we got married, this was my first time to try to be romantic in 10 yrs.
Last night, we had yet another blowout on this rocky road about the exact same issue. I had tried to ask forgiveness for being a guy, for being me, for having got into habits that got me into the predicament. I watched some TV while hugging her, tried to make some casual conversation. I had noticed a caller ID from a place she applied to work and I brought her the phone and tried to excite her about the OK opportunity. I got a map for the interviewing location, too. Yet, when bedtime approached, she mentioned an appt I have and somehow or another I made a bad joke and she was convinced that I saw her as ugly again.
She slept downstairs, probably quite poorly tossing and turning despite her interview being today.
I took the gamble and got the D out of the way. I tried, rather tepidly perhaps, to romance her. I agreed to the 6 months despite her and my reservations on the prayer and hopes that we could be happy.
