My Story

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-Stuck in Time

Ok so its been a little over 3 months now since my wife dropped the bomb on me that she wanted out. Of course I went through all the typical crying, begging, pleading stage and then started the DB book "plan" You can read through my stitch to see some of the ups and downs since.

Now for the last 2-3 weeks.
-Under the care of a doctor he has my on AD(upped dosage on last visit) and some other script for anxiety that has a name that I wont even try to spell.
- 3 visits to my therapist. Who I know is trying her best, but alot of the stuff she seems to be saying seems so "canned" if that makes sense. After my next couple visits I may have to re-evaluate and maybe seek another. (Small town, not much to choose from)
- I still come home to a tomb, I have tried reaching out to my kids but they seem blaise (sp?) to me, like they could care less if I where there or not. When I get home, everyone is upstairs, they come down for a bite to eat and then back upstairs. I have to go to bed around 10 and leave for work around 5am, so its like I never see them.
- Wife tried to get a job but at last doctor appt. she found out she was anemic and needs to have some form of operation, I gave her a hug when she was telling this story(about 2 weeks ago) and this is the last time we have spoken more then 3 words. So needless to say she is not working again which may have put a kink in her leaving plans?

So now it seems like I am stuck in time. Im just wondering is this where I need to step back and see what I am doing is working and change courses? Do I just go ahead and assume she is leaving and put the house on the market to prepare for the papers to be served some day?
Do I just let it ride and see what happens?

Ive been taking over alot more of the house hold responsibilities, have shown no anger in any shape or form towards her or the kids, have let her intiate conversations, I do sleep a bit more as the meds make me tired. And have paid all of her doctor bills that my insurance didnt fully cover without saying a word.
Help me out here please as I can feel the same anxiety/depression starting to creep back in just like it was day one despite the medication.
On the flipside, are my expectations to high and I need to learn a little bit of patience?
Thank You
Mike