just wanted to quickly comment in regards to sending your X a note saying "I'm sorry things ended up like this. Never in my worst nightmares did I imagine this could happen. I hope that someday you will give me the peace and grace of being able to tell you this. I hope you are well."
You don't need to apologize to him and most importantly, your EX cannot give you peace or grace. These are things that you give yourself and if you are religious that you can get from God. Either way, God grants peace and grace within you through the holy spirit which abides within you. If you are not into religion like that, you still can seek and obtain peace and grace by focusing on you, being good to yourself, and being good to others.
Me: 28 H: 32 1st marriage 4 both 1 1/2 year married 2gether for 9 1S: 6months 1stepson: 2yo
