Eye of the storm?

[cyclone]

Interesting turn of events. She's trying to regain control of the situation by not responding to your text when she was at the MC.

The MC and she didn't hear the phone for the text. I think it was an honest mistake. She is trying to regain control of things though. Today more phone calls. I think she has called more the past few days that the past couple of months combined.

The wedding ring is on again off again. This morning on, tonight off. I'm still trying my hardest to do DB well. I am following her lead and engaging in light conversation that she initiates. She has been initiating a lot of conversations. Tonight she Is back out of the house and when I got home from work she was noticably more distant. Much moreike her behavior before the past week or so. The guilt must be intense but like an addict she can't help herself. I does help to keep things real and seves as a reminder go stay detached as much as possible.

I had a great evening with the kids coloring Easter eggs and going on tour in rock band.

Tomorrow's MC session should be interesting. I'm going to let her lead the discussion. I wonder if she does know just how much her actions have hurt me. I'm trying to not give any power to her PA but not aknowledging it so she may not get it. I'm finding it hard to be short and somewhat distant while not coming across as cold and unfeeling.

There are baby steps and I won't let a night like tonight set me back. I am patient. I will make it through this.