A little low. . . I drove by his apartment yesterday at 10:30 pm (I was out late, crazy! :)) and I saw that his lights were off. Which meant a) he's out at a bar or something, b) he's at a guy's house, or c) he's at a girl's house. Yes, there's the slight chance that he was in there sleeping. But I really doubt it!
This knocked me down a bit. I knew I shouldn't have driven by, but I couldn't resist! It was on my way home.
So I spent yesterday night in anger. And then most of today in sadness! I guess going through the cycle all over again. My only comfort is that the more I do this, the easier it gets. And it's true. I didn't cry at all, so that's a huge step from a month and a half ago!
Then I heard from his sister that he's going to spend Easter with them. Which is good. I'm planning on having them give him the settlement contract that I got written up this week. Not sure how he's going to react to it. . . we'll see. . . Fortunately, I got an Easter invite from a friend, so I'm pretty excited for that. And grateful! It was always the 4 of us-- him and me and his sister and her husband-- so it's a little sad that we can't keep doing that.
Thanks for your replies, guys . . . if the D topic comes up again Babydoll, I can definitely use your line. (Unless I'm the one bringing D up, ha ha! Sorry, had to say it. :)) I am pro-relationship, though, that's for sure.
All right, off to watch 30 Rock and go to bed! bye!
me, 30 WH, 29 D born June 2010 M: July 2001 Bomb/S: 1/14/10 Done with it all.
