Getting started again.

[flowmom]

You sound like yourself again LR . So great to read your thread today.

[Lost Rabbit]

Thank you all!

The R is doing well and Ive even been able to be honest about a major other stressor going on in my life with H, which was good because he was able to see I wasnt picking on him just needed his support, its none too nice having a so call friend turn bitch on you, unfortunately can only turn the other cheek for the time being even though its gonna kill me in the process! But its for my baby girl so I have no other choice!

[rr22]

It's hard to keep everything locked inside. Glad space is getting created for you to feel comfortable sharing some again. Hope your week goes well!

[Butterfly1]

I"m so glad you are finally feeling ok to open up to him slowly about your feelings. I have been hoping this for a while. Please keep us posted. MIss you!

[flowmom]

progress
you deserve it!

[Butterfly1]

HOpe you enjoy your weekend - !!!! xx

[Lost Rabbit]

So he said as we fell asleep last night! That combined with him when I thanked him for cooking dinner thursday night he replied "thats ok youre working so hard atm" nice to have my hard slog at work to keep us just about afloat acknowledged. But felt bad because its a reminder of how much he'd have probably liked the same! But I do validate his home work as I know how manotinous it can be and how a whole day can fly past doing what seems the littlest of jobs, so I think were quits lol!

We keep plodding along, I know at some point some of the awkward bits are gonna have to be said, but I get the feeling he knows its just not a good time to talk about them when we have others things to worry about, maybeone day a few at a time.

Wishing you all a merry easter weekend!

[rr22]

Happy Easter to you too. Well, shoe's on the other foot now. Can't go back and thank him in the past. Thank him now and in the future and hopefully he'll do the same. Good job on acknowledging him helping with the home end of things now. I think everything WILL get talked about as financial stress eases over time if you can hold out. You seem to be in the stage of making sure the good changes last.

[Butterfly1]

Hope you had a wonderful Easter my dear. THank you for your chat the other day and all your love and support. I'm sure H know he's got a gem in you - and you deserve to feel that from him for the rest of your life.

You'll always be my inspiration!

[Lost Rabbit]

Funny old day really, H was messing around on the bed this morning pinned me under the sheets and said he wasnt gonna let me go! Was laughing but inside I thought "yeah heard that one before when you didnt want me" Anyway he pushed on and said something jokingly about "you'll have to behave or else" dunno it hit a raw nerve so I sweetly said "not funny" and again it happened so again "not funny"! Why does he say these things maybe habit, we all laugh at some point and say "im off if you dont behave yourself" but its something else to me now!

Started pondering on the my wedding anniversary which is about a month away now.. Neither of us wear our rings, me cos it hurts too much and him because he said it was old and battered like our marriage and he didnt want to wear it! So when we get there what are we supposed to be celebrating.. dont feel married as no mention of commitment to a marriage just us being together! So not sure how to handle this I dont want to celebrate a non event and i dont want to look like I dont care either.. So putting it out there for some aged wisdom from you all lol!

Went and sorted madam out this morning very very tired and still have lots of overtime work to do at home.. came home read my horoscope and decided I needed some me time even if I dont get the work doen, so had a nice snooze and then came back on the computer.. I seem to live here these days lol. Oh well it pays the bills!

Love to you all hope you had a nice weekend