feel disgusted by the things they've done? Whether the relationship is saved or not, when the smoke clears and the pain, bitterness, and resentment are gone, do you think they feel genuine remorse for the choices they've made? From the affairs, lying, harsh words, and selfishness.
I think about my WAS and all the things she has done and I can't imagine that she can look in the mirror and feel very good about what she sees.
Thoughts?
I sincerely hope so. But if they don't feel any of those things, they aren't worth either knowing or worrying about. I feel even worse about the OM who is my ex friend and colleague. I don't know how they carry on smiling and having holidays and generally living it up. It has to catch up with them someday.
I know where you're coming from CK. I long to know that my WAW is torn up inside as much as I am, hope that she can suffer just 1% of the disruption I sit amongst. I doubt she'll ever really understand what she did to me, I certainly don't think she's ever been driven to consider taking her own life.
But we'll probably never know these things. And I'm still here, still breathing, and I still have the moral high ground. You will too. And we will all end up being better people at the end of it all, no matter how hard it is to believe it at the moment.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
