I know the time is now. I have to rehearse what I will say and stick to the script as they say.
It seems like she knows when I am, what?, getting stronger or more determined. She will be nice and we will have some good days. Then I let my guard down. They never last, though. That's what I have to remember.
I am continuing to GAL. Last night, we watched Lost together like we always do. (That show better have a GREAT ending after watching and following it this long!!) She got up and said she was taking a shower and I told her I was going to a friends house. She asked why and I said he called and just asked me to come over. She said she didn't hear the phone ring. She was in the bathroom. She sat on the arm of the couch while we talked for a few minutes and I told her see ya later and left. Through the window on the door, I could see her just sitting there the same way I had done when she left me without a kiss or anything. Had a good time and got home @12:30.
BTW, today is my b'day. Rec'd several texts from friends and family wishing me happy b'day. Haven't heard from W. Didn't expect to.
