feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

Dudess,

Thank you for that. I know I deserve better. I always thought my H was good to me but now I am questioning everything

I had a long talk with a girlfriend last night who thought my H was a cocky s.o.b. I thought to myself...maybe I have been making excuses for him this whole time? I thought he was good to me..he did everything for me. I didn't realize how much I loved him until now when I have to let him go. I wonder if it's the loss or are my love feelings real? Throughout my M I carried a lot of resentment towards him for his lies so it did not allow me to be as open to him as I should have. I have learned a huge lesson here.

My stbXh comes home today. I have anxiety over it. I still hope that everyone who stops by gives me their opinion on telling the owh though.

I've got two appts with atty's today. It will be an emotionally draining day for me but I keep praying. Thanks for listening guys.

Luv