Into my arms... #70

[kat727]

Sure you have every right to be hurt, humiliated, sad, angry. All of it. Living on the brink of emotion though isn't doing you any good.

I don't know what your H is thinking. However how could he not be feeling some of the same emotions? He screwed up, you want him back, but boy is he going to remember every single detail of his torrid affair because that is the only way it will be right...for you.

I don't think he can do that. I have a very good memory but I can't remember everything that happened over 3 years in detail let alone what happened every minute yesterday.

When ex had his first affair I was so humiliated to know that his roommates girlfriend knew. This was someone I hated. How could she know of this shame? I know, now more than ever, it wasn't my shame it was my husbands. Over the years and maybe even more than the second affair, I imagine that shame and guilt wore away at him. Who would want to face that day in and day out, knowing that you were hurting someone you loved so much?

I am playing the fence today. Maybe feeling giddy in my own life is allowing me to ask my friends to move forward because really it is so much better than staying put.

(((((k))))).

kat