I was cool with him last night. Driving back from friends (he left work early) I sat in the car quietly and he asked what is wrong. I said "I am sick and tired of the lies". He asked what I meant getting worked up on a defense mode. I said I was sick and tired of his lies. I cant believe his sister was talking to Christina, being "friends" and that although it is his sister's choice and none of my business, I cant believe he has repeatedly denied anyone knew. I said I cant believe he put me in a position where I had to overcome the shock and pretend I knew this from him, as I should have known... That I guess I have probably made a mistake and wasnt clear enough when I said, "I want total honesty" because he doesnt get it. He started saying "what, when did they talk?" using present tense (which is his normal way of twisting phrases so that they are true) and then when he realised I wasnt falling for that, that I meant the past, he quickly stopped, knew he was being more ridiculous denying something I already knew. I said, this is a matter of respect. I quit trying, as of today.
I cant handle any more bombs going off left and right in my life. I have to believe honesty still exists in this world. Just not in his world.
As of today, I keep every/any possibility open. I consider everything a lie. I dont care to give him any credit. Some may think this is exaggeration. I think this is very serious.
I am keeping quiet. K
My D is sick and my dad feels really bad. And I want to hurt my H.
