She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

[steady]

tbart,

You are going into a funk for a few reasons:

1. You are resisting what already is. Fighting against something that already exists.

2. You think you know how this is all going to play out. Intellectually you know you don't know, but inside you, you see the future like an unraveling ball of yarn - where your life just implodes and crushes you. Depression is our emotional reaction to how we interpret our lives will be affected by what is happening now.

I just heard a great quote in a movie:

"Sometimes in life, the hardest choice is knowing which bridge to cross and which bridge to burn"

I'm not sure if you know the 5 stages of death and dying by Kubler Ross. These are the stages people go through when they are experiencing a loss.

* Denial (this isn't happening to me!)
* Anger (why is this happening to me?)
* Bargaining (I promise I'll be a better person if...)
* Depression (I don't care anymore)
* Acceptance (I'm ready for whatever comes)

I cycled through them...sometimes rapidly. Sometimes slowly. I still move through them but at a much slower pace. Sitting in acceptance most of the time.

You will go through this. Feel fine for a few days, then a rough day or few days, sometimes an hour good an hour bad, etc...

It's normal. When they hit just be aware it's just a cycle and it will pass onto something else. I also know what it's like to be stuck on that merry go round and not be able to get off. It's a difficult position to be in.

This too shall pass.