Everything Eric said is spot on...I too thought I should just file- I will not though, b/c all avenues have not yet been exhausted...I would only file IF we went to Retrou, had a serious committment from W w/ intensive FT and books, etc...and after 1 year it didn't work...maybe I would file...
In the meantime- I am getting used to meeting my own needs, I am slowly turning the other way...it's been 7 days NC- W called this morning and I did not answer nor return her call.
I am not waiting on her...
But somedays I am...
Eric stressed your R w/ God- I dont know your history- I for one am Jewish, but went to Catholic school years ago...I Googled, prayers for the wayward spouse and printed them...I will say them day and night and know that the rest is up to God...
My love for W means something to me- I have NEVER felt this way before, nor have I ever been so selfless...it HAS to mean something.
And even if it doesnt turn out the way I would like- I have made the ultimate sacrifice- putting my needs aside and loving despite the hurt I have been shown...UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
I know you have the same...hang in there and be the best dad you can be.
