8 weeks until D Day!!

[lea74]

Thanks G. I feel such a sense of failure at the moment. I regret maybe not mediating or negotiating with him as maybe it would have given us a opportunity to go out for some meals and I could show him my good side. I feel a little stupid now for not taking that chance. My reasons for not mediating or negotiating is that I just dont trust myself around him and know I would have agreed to something I shouldnt have. I also felt by doing mediation I would be making the D process easier for him.

I guess that is why I asked for time from him. To get used to the idea and then be able to proceed with dignity and strength. I just feel that if I had met him half way it would have actually been all his way. My H is also a very good negotiator so would make 'mincemeat' of me. Also I just found that every time I let my guard down, he would end up hurting me even more. He didnt seem to meet me half way - constantly parading his OW and A in front of me.