I will just bend over now for my 2x4's ...my H called earlier today and apologized for this morning. I didn't say much...because I really didn't have much to say. He said that he didn't mean to act the way he did and he understands why I would doubt him...he was lost when we were talking, runnng late for court, and was becoming grouchy..blah blah blah.
I know it doesn't appear that I have gone dark at all...but if you ask my H- he would have to disagree. Again..he brought up the fact that I don't answer text messages, respond to emails, or answer the phone. "Why can't I ever get in touch with you?"- which he has said to me quite a few times the past couple of weeks. He proceeded to say that he wants to be my priority...no matter if I am work, or with friends, or with family. If I cannot talk..he would like a text back letting him know..instead of constantly ignoring him. I told him that I was not ready to do that. He said OK..well if we make it through this..at some point- he needs to be my priority once again. OK.....
H then asks me about the treadmill...if I plan to use it etc etc.. I told him that I was going to start riding my bike again now that the weather is getting nicer. I told him that I needed to get different tires on my bike...and he insisted that he take it for me. He wants me to learn how to put the new tires on...but he wanted to go to the store and pick out the right ones for me. H also wanted to get me better handle bars and foot pegs. At first I said No- that I could take care of it..but he insisted. Was going to the house today to pick up my bike and get it taken care of.
Listen- I am not getting overly excited..or even slightly excited...I know my H is manipulative..and I know that I can be manipulated. I will continue to stay as dark as possible without being pitch black. I think I need to leave a little light on..right?
