The bonus is, you go about your life to the best of your ability without (as hard as it may be) waisintg all your time and energy on this. Your W will see that and question, why does he get to happy? Why aren't I?
dday, seriously you couldn't have picked better words. Because as of right now I see my W and ask why does she get to be happy? This is tough being honest with myself. But I have been lying to myself before this. yes I have been working on myself and I have been doing things to keep my occupide but I'm not happy. I curled into a ball on the couch last night crying and asking God to just bring her back to me. I felt pathetic but it was true words and emotion, it wasn't me keeping anything in. I was truly asking for what I wanted. I feel better today but i am still digging out of the hole I created for myself.
Leaving her alone is easier said then done but i'm sure I can figure out what to do in order to make it easier on myself. I really do need to start being absent when she comes to the house on the weekends.
Its crappy because when i was in the military I went overseas for months at a time and my love and fondness for her never deminished, and it doesn't seem to be now. Even though she is being a crappy and selfish person.
I need prayer. lol
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
