you are strong enough. i promise you. it's hard to tap into that strength when so much of your energy goes into feeling angry and hurt.
love can certainly make you think that you depend on your wife in order to be happy, but you were happy before you met her and no doubt you can be happy again. certainly she has hurt you and disrupted the life you had planned with her, but you choose how you react to that hurt. calling someone you love an immoral, uncaring, hurtful cow won't really get you anywhere, and feeling that way about her won't really help, either.
i'm reading this book right now called "storms don't hurt the sky" which is a buddhist approach to dealing with divorce. now i am not a buddhist, nor do i know much about buddhism, but i do know that i do not want to carry hurt and anger in my heart, nor do i want to flail around for the next few months and years, wasting my energies wondering why on earth this is happening to ME??? the author himself went through a divorce and talks about finding his way out of anger. i've only been reading it for a few days and i already feel i'm taking a calmer approach to what's happening in my life right now. maybe it could help you deal with some of the anger and hurt you're feeling now.
don't date to spite your W or to distract yourself...that's not really fair to the person you're dating. date if and when you're ready. people are not to be used as distractions to the pain you're feeling right now.
Me30 H29 M2.5 T5 H moved out 1/23/2010 H wants signed agreement 3/30/2010 ...feeling hopeless
