..make sure there isn't something subconscious going on ....to...?destroy things?. Could you subconsciously be hoping to push him away as reason to find an end to the pain?

I am not saying this is happening..just be 'uber' analytical.

FIB

Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11)
Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t
Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10
Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;