She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

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I find myself on this page all the time these days. I wouldn't have really left DR for the wife to find, but when I re-read it I just wish she could read the first few chapters, i would never ask her to read the book, because it's for me. I can't let her in on all my DB secrets.

I would like to say I have no expectations, but obviously there are some. I know once I get home I will be able to quickly read the reality of the sitch, and move from there.

My hopes aren't up, but they're also not down. I have to keep some hope until I know all hope is gone. Don't misunderstand me, I'm also very realistic. I'm just not feeling as down and out as I once was. I just can't let myself get like that again.

In 10 days I'll be reunited with the two most important girls in my life. That's why I have to remain strong. That will make me feel a million times better. When I'm with them I'll feel invincible. They're what my life has been all about.

I just signed up for a 5 day Sierra Nevada backpacking and rock climbing trip for when I get back. It's an all expense paid trip sponsored by Outward Bound for Iraq and Afghanistan Veterans. i feel I deserve this, and have definitely earned it.