help some advice plse..have i finished it for good

[JacT]

Yes there were times I shot him down. It devestated him when I left him all those years ago and I used it to my advantage throught out the M.

In April when I suspected an affair, i asked him to leave and go to his dads to think about talking to me truthfully. He kept saying you dont want me to go and I said I did.

As soon as he left I knew I had done the wrong thing and went after him but he mysteriously disappeared.Turned out he had called her and she has picked him up.That was the one and only time he was out all night. He told me next day he had walked the streets. He said at this point he was not having an affair.

I am not proud of myself and at this point really suspected something wasnt right.