help some advice plse..have i finished it for good

[JacT]

I have thought about getting friends to sow some seeds.But why ask for a D?It had crossed my mind maybe he was testing the water because I said I wouldnt D again.

Heres the punchline and the reason for the MLC..this is hard.My husband is a cross dresser. We believe it stemmed from when his sister was born and he wasnt allowed to bond with her. He started at 12 and his mother found out and threatened to tell his father.It got so bad before we seperated that he didnt know whether he actually wanted to a gender change.I think he thought he would get more love as a female.Its sad very sad.

When he first told me(16years of age and he 17), he sold it as a little fantasy but as life progressed so did it.I think he has told the ow the same.He did confirm she is happy to have him walk around dressed and also be intimate while dressed(more tranvestism where they can get a kick out of it). I have studied it for years and read lots on it but dont want to compete with that..I have been there.

The ow as you will now see..saw an opportunity to accept something I am sure he told I didnt(although after 28 years any normal person would see this is not the case and having shaved all his body hair)bingo...got him hook line and sinker but she is feeding something she knows little about.Latterly he wanted to go out dressed he said.(did once as 16 yr old in my clothes that I only found out about from his sister when his A was exposed)but dont know where he is on that.

I think thats the only reason he got involved.. she was up for anything, little fantasy world and then I can go home to the people I really love.(apparently her tongue for a woman was vile sexually)
I hope I havent shocked you and no doubt many will wonder what the hell are you doing? He was a wonderful husband and father and I believe in unconditional love....and my marriage vows.

The girls know about this and believe it or not the affair is the big issue. His father found out after the first D we had.
I decided at that point life was better with him and his habit than the pain of living with out him.

I know it something not many woman would chose to live with..just shows you how far this Ow is prepared to go to get a man...a 45 yr old CD male, depressed and no money who I am sure she knows, loves his family....God what a bloody mess....
I tell you you wouldnt after the challenegs we have been through take that to another house with kids if you loved somebody.

A dilemma a terrible dilemma...