Need a Plan for My Marriage

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A couple of weeks ago, I put a stop to my wife's text messaging and blocked the OM numbers, and I further changed all the codes since the account is in my name. She asked me to put her on the account which I told her "no" the other day. She asked me again tonight, and I just simply ignored her. I will not change this. She said, "she will get her own plan." That is okay with me, but we do not have the money as it is for our current bills. If she has the money she can do it. She also wanted to see the bills which I have never stopped her. She checked while I quietly played a game of Solitaire. I have nothing to hide. Most of the money is spent by her when I tell her we cannot afford it. I simply asked if she had any questions when she was finished, and she said "no". It was a little unnerving, but I did not let her bother me too much. I have had it since yesterday. She is just too rude to even bother with when she is like this. She leaves her dishes in the sink and does not say thank you. She is so self righteous that it makes want to "puke." She disgusts me after leaving yesterday without so much as a good-bye to me or the kids. I still want the marriage, but I do not want a wife that is so uncaring and callous. I don't know what she hoped to find. We have very little money, but she has money from her parents, and goes out to lunch everyday, and buys shirts and hats for the kids. She takes them to miniature golf from this money. It is like she is trying to buy their love. I have been telling her for a while we need to budget, but she has not cared until now. How great is that! What a great woman. I tell you! I am just doing my own thing. I do not GAL because the kids are more important. She does not get home early enough to anyways. I find solace in TV, the computer, and most of all the kids. I do not listen to what she says or pay attention less to what she does. It is just irritating to have her have an attitude with me. I have a phone interview this Wednesday, and I am very excited.

Wish me luck!!! I want a job so bad. It will help me a lot I am sure for myself in this situation. I need something if she divorces me.

She arrived to work at 8:00 am, and I picked her up at 7:15 pm. She had dinner and we took the kids for a walk. She was with my son, and I was with my daughter on opposite sides for the street because she wants it that way. It so upsets my daughter. My daughter is becoming very disrespectful to her. It is so sad. I told her to apologize. It is hard on everyone, but my wife just ignores her more and more and everyone for that matter. What has happened to her I don't know. She is definitely an "alien" to me. I do not love this woman that is with us now. That so sad too. She is more interested in work and the OM. It is unbelievable to me!!! Enough for now.

I just have to take it day by day and stand by my convictions! Not much of a plan.