I'm not sure exactly WHY I'm reading them and yes they are snail mail letters. After I read them I put them away.
I can only wish I could invite my husband over and he accepts. However, I seriously doubt that would happen in this lifetime.
No the OM never apologized for destroying my marriage. He feels like since i had already left home that i wasn't cheating and that since my husband RARELY called me or was even concerned about me that he didn't want the marriage anyways.
Since I have NOT responded to the OM letters he has stopped. The calls eventually stopped, the emails have stopped, so the letters will completely stop also.
I must admit however that the way my husband is treating me now is somewhat how he treated me during our marriage, ie putting his family first, not spending quality time with me, and disconnected to how I feel.
I know that what I did was wrong with the OM but if in fact my huband truly wants to move on, why even lead me on. I've been getting mixed signals since January. I often feel like this affair is convenient for him to get out of a marriage that maybe he didn't want. Not to say the A doesn't hurt him BUT maybe underneath it all he really doesn't want to be married.
Only time will tell but I can tell you that I haven't even seen him take baby steps. As soon as he takes one step forward he takes 20 back. I know I must endure this because I am the reason we are NOT together. I know that my love is being tested but if this is how it's going to be all the way up until divorce court. I mise well go into a depression and watch everything wither away!
