gatsby, you sound so strong... wish i could be there. i am going to read your threads to learn a bit more about your sitch. I think i overlooked your post when i read it earlier today! Oops!
when you said 'of course he is not miserable...' it made me chuckle! makes so much sense.
will your H be involved when the baby is born? i read above you said you agree he should not be in the delivery room. truth is, i think i would be extremely hurt to have him in the room...
hope your doing well... thanks for the encouragement.