I suspect.. if you asked him the same question.. he would have the same answer.
Your "conversation" is proof of that.
"Apart from discussions, I am acting the best possible way I can"
Why do the "discussions" stand apart from you doing the best you can?
The issue I have with the "discussions" is that you really think you need them. Somehow they will make things better. The "Crazy Talk" part of me just wants to say.. It was not that long ago he needed "someone" else. I suspect he thought it would fix things... or make "it" better. Things become important to us for a multitude of reasons. We still really have to look at how much "work" is involved in things that are important to us.
"Of course the admiration and respect I had for him, have subsided, I dont believe him the way I did, but I cant create these feelings... they have to build up."
The only way you can build.. is to give. Respect and admiration are 2 big things for a man. The issue is they also have almost the same meaning. For me and what I am reading.. the more you respect him.. the more you will gain. Does he deserve it? No. But.. I think you will find.. even if it is just a little respect.. big gains will come your way.
Something you are doing here is working. That is for sure. You just need to fine tune it.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
